your worth

up till now, i'm still considering..whether you're worth to be mentioned about.. or not.
but seeing i'm already typing this all out, might as well..

happy 25th to you.
i've been thinking of making contact, wishing happy birthday.
just because i love birthdays. and i guess i still value of what we have.
or rather what it used to be.
but some part of me has been telling myself that maybe i should just forget all about it...
i could never beat presence of people.
that can be there in a matter of minutes.
whenever you're in need.
well, simply because i'm thousand miles away.
absence makes people forget.
i just have to let that sink into mind.
so i sent the card anyway.
and i made a call only to be hang up on.
i was mad.frustrated.
and i'm tired to be the only one who cares to initiate things.
i guess those were signs. that i no longer belong in the presence.
my place is in the past.