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sape?

sayala.
exam is less than 60 days. and i still dont feel stressed out. and now i am stress that i dont stressed out about exam. make sense? no? i think i've blogged about this feeling before,before i sat for my end-phase exam last year.

i dont have the drive just yet. god, what am i thinking? there's just so much to cover, i dont think 60 days would be enough. and yet, i still have time lazying around. go to bed early and wake up late. whenever i complaint to friends whom i've known for a lifetime(almost!), they'd just brush me off and say."ala, budak pandai mcm kau, x yah risau2 la.".it's frustrating! the thing is, i dont feel as intelligent as i was in schools before. i mean, medicine is just so broad, it's impossible to know everything!!

as the exam this time around would be a bit different, i dont know how well (or god forbid, awful) i'm gonna do this time. osce will be harder. you're expected to know.. ya know, differential diagnosis and so on. my group mates and i went to see a patient during our renal attachment last week. as we were in renal attachment, everyone was practically really tuned in to all the renal stuff. when the doctors asked, there'd be no problem to answer. the patient that we saw was admitted due to difficulty of breathing. when the doctor asked what's the differentials; i was thrown off guard. i was like the eight person after the first person that he asked.so,imagine how harder was that! i mean, all the people ahead of me surely have thrown all the most easiest/possible differentials. and that little incident did scare me off about exam. i mean, for simple things like shortness of breath, and i dont even know 10 most likely causes??. haih,ape nak jadi ni.

and i'm such a whiner. i know!